Baby teaser

OK you guys. Tevita put the little teaser up on Monday and we have had several phone calls, blog comments, and texts. We were not going to say anything for awhile because quite frankly I have been a nervous wreck! On April 3rd the twins would have been turning one. Can you believe it? I have been so sick and the kids have been wondering what is going on with their mom. I have known for a little bit that I am going to have a baby but I just haven't wanted to say anything. I'm not trying to be rude by not telling people, I am just so nervous about loosing another one that I have just kept it between me and Vita. On Monday we went to the doctor and he sent us for an ultrasound on Wednesday. I was shaking so bad that I couldn't control it when I went in. The last time I was there I saw my baby boys not breathing and without a heart beat. I was so nervous. The tech looked around for a minute and then told me to hold my breath. Right after that she got the heart beat and it was 153. And the good news is that there is only one baby!!! I immediately started crying and was so thankful for good news. I still have to take it really easy. In the past I have lost the babies at about 20 weeks so I am afraid until then I will be nervous. But I'm trying to be positive and relying a lot on Tevita to keep me sane through this. He always tells me that things happen for a reason, so I'm just hoping and praying that this reason will stay alive! I'm sorry to my friends that I have lost touch with over the last couple of months. I have pretty much been in bed or throwing up. I get horrible sickness and I am trying really hard to keep food down. The kids are doing great and are there to hold my hair back while I am throwing up. They are also praying every night that the baby will be ok and be able to be a part of our earthly family. Please keep us in your prayers...we are going to need them. Oh, by the way, the baby is due on November 11th (my brothers birthday).