I miss Mom

My friend started a blog. One of her friends commented that there is somewhere that will bind your blogs so you can have a journal. I thought this was a great idea and it got me thinking that I should write things down that I don't want to forget and hopefully I will be able to find this place that she was talking about. Anyways, a few of you I have already told this but I need to write it down. So, as we all know we are going to have another baby. With this pregnancy has come a lot of emotional experiences for me. First of all, this is the first pregnancy without Mom being here. I don't like going through it without her but it is something I have to do. I find myself crying everyday, sometimes I don't even know why. I have been really sick throughout this one also. In times past, I would go to mom's house and she would take care of me. This time I just find myself praying a lot. When I say a lot, I mean a lot. I sometimes think I am going to drive Heavenly Father nuts with all my prayers. I finally broke down and asked Vita for a blessing. After, I have felt somewhat better. Can I just say how thankful I am for a husband who is able to give a blessing whenever we need one? I have had dreams of mom now for the past two weeks. I think it is her way of letting me know that she is here with me through this one. I am sure that I am driving Tevita nuts and I know it is not easy for him to see me so sick all the time. I hope he knows how truly grateful I am for him and the support he gives me. I made him take me to the cemetary today and we just sat and cried for a few minutes. I know that this is by far the hardest one I have had to go through, not the sickest, but the hardest because mom is not here. Let me just say that I truly love the example that my mom was to me. She was my best friend and I miss her more than anything. I miss her hugs, I miss her hands, I miss her smile...I miss the comfort that she was to me. I only hope that I can be as good of a mom to my kids as she was to us. I know that everything will be ok. I can feel it. I know that I have the support of my family that is here and I am thankful for that. I know that Mom is happy now. I have questioned that but after the last two weeks I know in my heart that she is truly happy. She is not suffering anymore and for that I am grateful. I am so thankful for our knowledge that Families can be together Forever.

Busy, Busy, Busy

Well, wrestling tournaments have begun. Braxton took 2nd place in the South Sevier tournament on Saturday. He did such a good job and we were so proud of him! This coming Saturday he will be wrestling in North Sevier. Hope you can be there Uncle Justin. He has quite the schedule...Monday is dance, Tuesday is wrestling, Wednesday is Piano, Thursday is wrestling and Saturday is wrestling. We asked him if he is overwhelmed and he said No, he likes being active. Tevita starts volleyball this week. We are all excited for that. Lia and Pola have been practicing volleyball everyday so they will be able to hit it over the net at Vita's game. Silly girls. The other day we were at Grandpa's house and I asked Mehi, "Mehi are you pretty?" She said No. So I asked her again and again her reply was No. Then she looked at me and said, "No Mommy I'm not pretty, I'm beautiful!" What a character she is turning into! Next week we have a doctor's appointment and hopefully we will find out what the baby is. We will let you know as soon as we know! Better go for now.

Braxton's Baptism

Well, since I put my favorite baptism picture on here I guess I should say a little bit about it. Braxton's baptism was a very special day! We had looked forward to it for a long time. He was so excited! He started growing his hair when he was 7. He said he wouldn't cut it until he turned 8. He wanted to donate it so other little boys could have hair. It was completely his own idea. I loved his beautiful long curly hair and I actually hated to see it go. We had Grandma Lita with us for the baptism and we also got to meet Uncle Pita for the first time. Braxton was really lucky to be able to have his own baptism(not with the rest of the stake) and had his uncles speak. It was the first time for me being in the relief society room since Mom passed away so it was of course very emotional for me. I loved looking around the room and seeing all of the family, both Tevita's side and my side. All the cousins sang I Am A Child Of God in both English and Tongan. It was such a special day. Braxton still to this day talks about his baptism and his hair! We were so lucky to have everybody there. We love you guys.

We'll see

Well, Jamie told me about her blog and I thought it looked like a great thing to do. I'm attempting to do this for our family so I hope it works. Thanks Jamie for the idea. It seems like a great way to keep in touch and up to date with everybody. Hopefully I can get it to work...Jodi