




Christmas 2008 came and went and I am just now getting around to posting. We had a great Christmas this year. We were lucky to have Fine, Lita, and MJ with us. It was nice to have them here. Tevita and I both worked on Christmas Eve and Christmas day. I wonder if our kids will ever get a true holiday without their parents working! Oh well, I'm glad they got to stay home with Grandma and Grandpa. After the kids opened their presents I had them get ready and we went to Justin's for breakfast. It was nice to go down there and spend some time with my family. I miss them sometimes and I know that sounds weird because they are only 45 minutes away but I don't see them very often and I do miss them and enjoy the time I get to spend with them. After breakfast we delivered presents to my auntie's house and my grandpa's house and then we came back so I could go to work. That day was pretty emotional for me. I loved seeing my kids and the brightness of their eyes as they got their gifts. Tevita gave me a gift and he wrote me a letter with it. The letter started my day off with tears. As I was driving and it was quiet (because all the kids were listening to their MP3 players) I kept thinking about my children in heaven. Spencer would be 7 years old now and Kafa and Finau would be 3 or 4 months old (depending on if they would have made it full term). How would our Christmas have been different if they were all here? I know for sure that Brax and Spencer would have been outside playing with the new basketball. I know my dad would have been holding the twins and crying because he missed mom. I know it would have been different but it wasn't. Instead I said a prayer and made my husband hug me until I could stop crying. I wonder if the hurt will ever go away? I know it will get better but there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of them. I know they had the best Christmas where they are and I know they are all watching over us. I know they are with my mom and that comforts me. I know that a part of my heart went with them and there is a little void that will be there until I am with them again. I know that my husband also feels the same way. I am so thankful for all our blessings. We are so blessed and I do realize that. I am a little sad that the holiday season is about over. I feel it came and went so quick but I am looking forward to next year. I love my family so much and am so thankful to be able to spend some quality time with them all. I will post more later. Love to you all!














































