Sad Times

Well, we are definitely having a very sad time here. We went to the doctor on Monday. Everything looked good at the appointment and then we had to go to the ultrasound. We were so excited to find out what the babies were. Well, the first picture we knew something was wrong. To make a long story short, we lost both babies. The doctor thinks it was twin to twin transfusion. What this means is that one baby takes all the nourishment, leaving one starving and one overloading causing congestive heart failure. We have to be at the hospital at 7:00am tomorrow morning to deliver the babies. Needless to say, this is a very difficult time and if it weren't for the gospel I for sure wouldn't make it through it. I am so thankful for all the love and support from my friends and family. I am sorry to all of you if I seem grouchy. I am trying to deal with this and be so strong but all I want to do is sit and cry. Tevita and I wanted these babies so much and it is heartbreaking that we won't have them until we return with them. The kids are being very strong. They are asking many questions and crying sometimes but they are being very brave about the whole thing. Braxton is trying to be really tough but I know it is hard for him. He has so many questions and we are just trying to answer them as best as possible. We are so thankful that we have been blessed with these 4 beautiful kids and hopefully we will make it through this grieving process. Family, please don't worry about us. We will be ok. I know you are all worried but we got through this before and we will get through it again. We are just thankful for our knowledge of the gospel. We love you all.