Christmas 2008 came and went and I am just now getting around to posting. We had a great Christmas this year. We were lucky to have Fine, Lita, and MJ with us. It was nice to have them here. Tevita and I both worked on Christmas Eve and Christmas day. I wonder if our kids will ever get a true holiday without their parents working! Oh well, I'm glad they got to stay home with Grandma and Grandpa. After the kids opened their presents I had them get ready and we went to Justin's for breakfast. It was nice to go down there and spend some time with my family. I miss them sometimes and I know that sounds weird because they are only 45 minutes away but I don't see them very often and I do miss them and enjoy the time I get to spend with them. After breakfast we delivered presents to my auntie's house and my grandpa's house and then we came back so I could go to work. That day was pretty emotional for me. I loved seeing my kids and the brightness of their eyes as they got their gifts. Tevita gave me a gift and he wrote me a letter with it. The letter started my day off with tears. As I was driving and it was quiet (because all the kids were listening to their MP3 players) I kept thinking about my children in heaven. Spencer would be 7 years old now and Kafa and Finau would be 3 or 4 months old (depending on if they would have made it full term). How would our Christmas have been different if they were all here? I know for sure that Brax and Spencer would have been outside playing with the new basketball. I know my dad would have been holding the twins and crying because he missed mom. I know it would have been different but it wasn't. Instead I said a prayer and made my husband hug me until I could stop crying. I wonder if the hurt will ever go away? I know it will get better but there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of them. I know they had the best Christmas where they are and I know they are all watching over us. I know they are with my mom and that comforts me. I know that a part of my heart went with them and there is a little void that will be there until I am with them again. I know that my husband also feels the same way. I am so thankful for all our blessings. We are so blessed and I do realize that. I am a little sad that the holiday season is about over. I feel it came and went so quick but I am looking forward to next year. I love my family so much and am so thankful to be able to spend some quality time with them all. I will post more later. Love to you all!
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Oh sweetie, hugs from me. I miss them for you and look forward to having you introduce them to me when this all comes to an end. H
Jod, your post touched my heart. Of course you yearn for the children who are not with you, that is what makes you a good mom, but you live your life to the fullest for the children who are with you now, enjoying every moment even more because of the ones you miss...and that is why you are a GREAT MOM!! I admire your strength. Happy Holidays from all of us!!
hey i am so sorry you had such a rough holiday. I was just thinking of those little boys the other day too, and of course mom, but thinking of those boys and how they would bring so much joy to our family. I am hoping that next year won't be as crazy as this year and we can all spend the holiday together again. I am glad though that you guys had a good christmas though for the most part. Hope to see you soon. Love ya tonz, Scoot
Hey Jodi,
I am sitting here in the library of my school with Gerbz(Alex). I am sure that you remember him. Well I want you to know that I now have a blogspot and I hope that you will be visiting it soon. Yip Yip Yahoo. Well Gerbz and I are sending our love .
Rachelle and Gerbz
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